Flawless

I have always thought of myself as worthless. I never loved my self or who I was becoming until just recently. Maybe a few months ago. I would constantly point out my flaws. Try to right my every wrong. And yet never be good enough. This weeked my boyfriend told me those 3 little words I have been longing for for so long. I love you. You love me? Im sorry did I hear you correctly. Or did i just want you to say that and my mind is playing tricks on me. I never thought anyone could love me. Oh no, not me. Poor kaylyn. No one will care for you. Love you. Or even lust after you. It honestly brings me to tears. Andrew Loves me. And I love him with all my heart. No one has ever told me they loved me. My parents, yes. But no guy. Its a crazy thing, Love. Its crazy that I can love something so much to want it to be with me for ever. Its crazy that I AM IN LOVE! When the words came out of his mouth, my body flooded with emotion. Im just speechles. Trying to write about my experience and yet just taken back. You love Me? wow. What did I do to deserve a man like him, im not sure. We have had our rough patches. We have been through our stuff. But now that he has let go. Opened his heart, he fell in love. We have been going for about a little over a year now. Off and on. Learning about eachother. Laughing. Living. And just recently we became facebook official. Im pretty sure I mentioned that. And now he loves me. I honestly fell inlove the first time I saw him. And my love just grew deeper and deeper. For him to say that he loves me first is amazing. To hear him say it is like the few seconds right before the sunrises. Just like complete peace. Him saying it makes me know that he feels the same way about me as I do him. Its just crazy. I replay it over and over in my head. Andrew loves me. LOVES me. I always wanted someone to love me. Someone to care about me. But i never knew it would hit me the way it has. I never knew I could get butterflies everytime I think of andrew. I never knew that someone could take my breath away every single time I saw him. Even if he leaves the room and comes back. The seconds Im not with him, I crave him. And him saying he loves me lets me know he feels the same way. I just cant believe the words. Cant believe my heart. Life works in crazy ways. I love Andrew. And always have and always will. WOW!